August 2009
175 posts
and today was blasé and i miss you infinitely
it was so slow in the store today. and i saw so many people. people i know, people i knew, people i wish i’d known, people i wish i didn’t.
Is spending 3 grand on a car worth it, before I buy my camera? If I had my camera I could make the 3 grand easier. I don’t know. I’m thinking out loud. All I want is for someone to let me think out loud and understand where all of these thoughts are coming from. I wish I could wish I was home. And I wish you’d call me. But I wish you wouldn’t, I don’t want to get...
Yes, you are the biggest ass hole I have ever known. I let myself let you lead me to believe you weren’t. I…I don’t even know how to comprehend what took place. Sick of people’s shit. Sick of Rochester. Sick of Henrietta. Sick of people’s lack of consistency. Sick of anxiety.
Feeling very odd. Not myself. I have no one to be myself around anymore. I just feel weird. I guess I’m getting used to it. I can’t ever find anything to wear. I can’t ever find anything to drink. I stress out about the little things. I’ve been listening to the same songs over and over again. And I wanna see that person and this person, but I can’t. I’m...
Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art…
It has no survival value;...
– C.S. Lewis
After tonight I realized I need to be doing what I love. I’ve been fortunate enough to learn a lot about myself the last few days. Thanks to some wonderful men and my own ambition. “How I’m living, how I’m learning, how I’m hurting, I’m thinking all the time.”
Do I know you?
Will I know you? Did I know you? I stand around, check people out, clean up after children, and judge. I chuckle occasionally at people’s mumbles to be polite. They are always right. I see a person i know here or there, awkwardly waving. I make nice eye contact with a young gentlemen and finish with “have a great afternoon.” (Wouldn’t matter anyway.) I make lists in my head...
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and sitting there, taking every moment in, thinking, “is this real?” makes it feel real. thinking this could never happen to me, smiling with my eyes and laughing through my teeth. i barely have a second to waste before it’s gone. and i cherish each breathing. and i thank God everyday for your being.
Perfect accident
about to fix breakfast and coffee and supposedly donuts for 10 wonderful gentlemen.
daniel vosovic completely deserved to win the all-star challenge.
hands of.
fumbling through my dilapidated sheets
i’m alone in this bed...
mattressesunderwater:
i want to be best friends with you. i think we could be a great team. really, i do. and i want to be the inseparable kind. where you finish my sentences for me, and i finish yours. i’ve never had that before. where i can just look at you and you’ll laugh, because you know what i’m thinking. the kind of team where we laugh until we cry. and we do it often. that’s all i want. a...
should i be stressing the fuck out trying to make plans with people and have a good time?
I wish no one knew about you, like things used to...
Times I wish I had a bike:
jesuisperdu:
to ride to a girl’s or friend’s house on summer nights
to go to the library when you are carless all summer
PHILLY!
when cars are obsolete and bikes rule once again
portland
to go to the 7eleven for some snacks& magazines
to chase after the punks who littered on our lawn
to ride away after you find out one of the kids has an older brother twice your size
to get away for...